I’m not in the mood to exist
I never realized how important music is to me until I started having problems with my boyfriend about it.
so i was just typing fellatio and accidentally mistyped fellation and that sounds like the penis eeveelution and who can i share this with dsalf;ka
Hey I made a blog yesterday because I’m depressed and I want to vent to anything. I’m trying to make it less self-pity, more self-healing. If you’re interested just holla
being sad while on tumblr is difficult because funny shit pops up on your dash and you laugh and you’re like “no do not interrupt my sadness with your funny gifs stop that”
having feelings that you know are dumb
being upset at yourself for having feelings that you know are dumb
So it turns out my fiance is going to have to stay in the US 3 months more for his just-in-case-he-still-has-cancer scans. By now I’ve given up hope that he’s coming any time soon. First we thought he’d be home for Christmas, then my birthday, then February, then April, then May and now this. I feel like it’s never going to end and like it’ll never go back to the way things were.
I guess I don’t mind if things go back to the way they were. It’s not like I’m going to stop loving him. I’m going to enter a new chapter in my life when he comes back because for the first time, I won’t be studying for a while and I’ll be marrying him and I’ll actually be doing grown-up things… I don’t know. I just want him back in my life again.
My throat aches from crying.
And I feel soo stupid from crying about all this. As if this is the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone. There’s people out there with problems that are much worse and here I am crying about this. It feels stupid and it makes me cry more. I don’t want to be stupid.
I love how my and my co-worker are in our college major practice in our respective computers not doing work. At all. And we couldn’t be more obvious about it. He’s smiling at his screen. You do not smile at your screen when you’re revising and rewriting old documents.
-> My life
do you ever feel like you have a crush on someone and then the next day you’re like wow no it’s just friendship
and it’s a constant cycle of wow ilu oh wait no i dont no nvm yes i do ah no false alarm
it’s so confusing